Monday, June 23, 2008

When life gives you lemons, don't rub them on that paper cut you gave yourself yesterday.

So I'm in a really sticky situation that has been going on for several weeks now and that I admit is at least partially of my own making. I don't really want to post any details here.

And it hurts. I'm struggling with how to act and how to feel, and it IS a struggle. I am trying to stand up for myself (which I'm not very good at), but also not be a total jerk to the other people involved, and I'm not sure that I'm doing a very good job at either.

AND I'm trying to have faith that this will work out, and I'm trying to be ok with the fact that I don't get to define what that means, but that Heavenly Father does, and that that is better than me defining it.

Really, it's better. Really.

Argh.

Pray for me, please?

9 comments:

Matthew & Janina said...

I'll pray for you, Margaret! Everything will get better :) love you!

PlaidWing said...

you are in my prayers! i love you!!!! whatever the problem, in the long run, and as long as you have faith in God, all things will turn out for the best. ...just dont get any of that lemon juice in your eye, okay?...

Danielle said...

You betcha! I'm sorry things are challenging right now. If it helps at all, you're not alone in trying to figure out what to do (stick up for yourself without being "jerky", understand what the right thing to do is - having faith that HE knows better and completely surrending ourselves to Him and taking steps into the dark). WE ALL EXPERIENCE THIS! Sometimes, I think, Heavenly Father lets us wrestle with things to 1) remember that HE does, in fact, know best. And that we are dependent upon Him for everything; 2) to us that we're stronger that we thought we were/are; 3) appreciate the simple pleasures of life (and the people in it) more; 4) grow, progress, and become more like the Savior.

You have amazing faith, Margaret. I never worry too much about you because you are such a tough cookie. As it says in Galations 5:10 "I have every confidence in you" that you'll make the right decisions and all will be well. That doesn't lessen the pain you feel, I know, which saddens me. Yet, I do hope you'll feel the prayers of your friends and, most importantly, the Savior's love pleading on your behalf.

Danielle said...

ugh - the writer should copyedit her own blog comments.

#2 should say "to remind us that we're stronger than we thought we were/are".

You can do it, girl. BTW, thanks for the Johnny Depp DVD. I got it in the mail yesterday! :) :) :)

~b said...

oh marge- i am sorry that you are hurting right now. it is never ever fun. just remember that there are people out there who love you and are cheering you on. and although it is cliché things do work out. and this will work out too. and if you ever (EVER) need to talk, i am always here!!! love you!

Amy said...

I love you too! And I've been praying for you!

Also, I think it should be comforting to you in times of trial that YOU'RE FRICKIN' HILARIOUS. I love your post title.

But I, too, am really sorry it's so hard and is such a weird and not-good-feeling situation. :P You're marvelous. You'll come out on top, one way or the other.

The Thomas Five said...

I'm kinda speechless...

Partly cause I know how it is to feel so rotten and like your hanging on with one finger to everything you know and believe. And the other part because I care a lot about you; its hard to hear you're hurting. You have turned some of my most hard days into good ones.... remember the happy journal you made me? I love that thing. Honestly I pull it out when Im down. It was a wonderful gift.

I love you Margaret, and will pray that whatever trial you may be dealing with, will come to an end. Hang in there and trust in the plan of our loving Father in Heaven, and those who love you dearly.

K... guess I'm not so speechless. :) BIG HUGS!!!!

NoSurfGirl said...

Gosh... those situations are never fun. I hope all goes as smoothly as possible, despite any and all stickiness. It's never fun to do the unpopular thing, or to do something that someone else you value won't like. But that's where real integrity is bred, isn't it?

Well, whatever it is you've got prayers coming your way from our direction.

Camie said...

umm, I need details, call me!